Tuesday, 03 July 2012
I won't say in the right direction, because truth be told, who knows where it'll lead.
But I've quit my job. I'll be staying a few weeks to ensure transition and all, (it's being negotiated, because I'm nice...) but by the end of July, I'm outta here.
Through all the ups and downs of life, my job has been the one constant over these past 5 years, and I'm grateful for that. But it's time for a change. The good thing is that I won't be unemployed, I'll just be going back to the recall list at the hospital for the time being, which will allow me to do replacements and such. I won't be jobless... but as of today, I'm leaving my position. I've already started applying in various graphic design positions. Revamping my cv and portfolio.
I admire those for whom such decisions are easy... but for me, this was a giant leap. I'm a very anxious, afraid-of-change sort of overthinker. Shitty as it was, this job was a source of stability and familiarity. I like the people I work with, as well, so this was extremely difficult for me. But I'm proud of myself. It went well, my boss was understanding, and I'm leaving on good, if not great terms.
There are a lot of uncertainties right now, but the one thing that is certain: there will be no more dreading getting up in the morning. No more being completely depressed on Sunday evenings. No more tolerating of hating every second of being at work.
Who knows, but for now, I'm relieved.